This boy and I were up late last night. He knew something exciting was happening, and he knew it involved cake. Two cakes, because, you are only two once. At 8:00pm he was up making a huge mess in the mixing bowl, eating raw batter and crying huge tears when we went to put it in the oven. "It's your morning cake," I told him, "and you have to cook it for it to become the cake."
That's not what he wanted to hear. Finally he fell to sleep on top of me on the couch as Patrick and I sat in the dark, waiting for the timer, wondering how we managed to be here again, at two.
The sun rose and Eli brought him presents in bed, he didn't even make it out of the bed first, to see his little table of gifts from his brother and sister.
They all crowded around him to show off their art work and the jar full of white rocks from the beach and buttons from who knows where. And for morning cake.
Sometimes I feel exhausted and overwhelmed. This little two year old has a whining and demanding edge to him that can sometimes bring me to tears. Somehow, I know I have a lesson in there. I feel he is a reflection of my insides that don't feel so calm all the time, and he is fighting for attention and to be heard. I am challenged to find a stillness through the loudness, I am challenged to breathe through the tough stuff. Patrick and I are so blessed with these babes of ours and in the quiet of the night, when all is calm, when all are asleep; we know that in the morning we start again. The little lessons and joys that come from being two parents learning as we go, figuring it out. It's our third time at this age, our third time seeing two, and we love what we see.
I'll post cake number two tomorrow.
3/4 c buckwheat flour 3/4 c almond meal 1 tsp baking soda 1 tsp sea salt
1/3 cup applesauce 1/3 cup melted coconut oil 1/2 cup agave 2 eggs
add in 1 cup grated zucchini 1 cup grated apple 3/4 coconut flakes 1/2 c dark chocolate chips
Mix wet into dry, stir in add ins. Grease a pie plate with coconut oil, pour batter in, bake at 350 degrees for 45 minutes or until middle is firm. Don't make babies cry when you place in oven!