I recently spent 3 days in NY with just myself. (Thank you Kate for the adjustment to with instead of by myself, what a difference!) I can say with certainty that it is the longest time I have ever been with just me. I had 2 wonderful meals with a friend, the rest of the time I prepared food for myself, slept when I desired and went out walking when my feet felt like moving.
I was under the impression that the weekend was going to be about productivity. So much would get done, three whole days to write and create. What happened was in fact more productive than producing an 80 page e-book, it was a lesson in clarity and of where I am.
My friend asked me as we were sitting in an outdoor cafe, sipping some seriously outrageous cocktails, what would I be doing if I did not get married and have kids. That question hit me deeply, and yet the answer was so simple. I hope that I would be right there, in that spot, talking with someone I loved, on the same path that I am on today.
I would be fully steeped in my purpose, inspiring and engaging others to live their lives gorgeously.
And yet this life, these choices I have made are part of my purpose. Guiding women, mostly (but not always) mothers to find the gorgeous inside and outside is what keeps me moving, accountable and driven. I hold in my tribe a collective of women who are breaking out of the shoulds and steering the course for not settling for anything less than complete fullness and joy in relationship and purpose. A knowing that settling is not an option taking place in the hearts of women. It is like a concert in the heart.
The concert is complete and fantastic. It sounds and feels and looks so different for each of us. For me today, I can use my senses to describe this gorgeous life, this concert in my heart like this...
It feels like the pasta scene in lady and the tramp, smells like fresh cut grass, sounds like cindy lauper wanting to have fun, tastes like chocolate cream pie that melts slowly in your mouth and looks like crisp white sheets hanging out to dry on a clothes line in the sun...
As I found myself not creating as much in those three days, but defining and wrapping myself up with clarity, I discovered myself in a new space, one that I had been standing on the outside of and knowing was familiar and safe. This space was one of rhythm. It was of trusting my process. It was my voice, rising up, speaking louder.
With three kids, an ever growing business and relationships that need my nurture I knew this one thing stronger than I have ever known anything. My intuition started to buzz and I was understanding exactly how to deepen this connection to self, this process of truly riding the overwhelm and flowing with the moments of confusion and failure. I knew what I would bring back with me, and how I would do that.
Each one of you has the ability to deepen your rhythm, your calm and your process.
And Simple Mama went from the idea stage into excited reality in a few short hours. And I started the foundation of another project that will let joy rise up! When you are called to something so intensely and passionately all else melts away until it is complete. I want you to know that feeling. To know how possible it is to have your intuition so in tune, so sharp that you know what is next.
My mama intuition told me that I needed to deepen my rhythm, to finish painting the kitchen, to get back to my food intuition and to start clearing even more space.
My intuition strongly urged me to start speaking even louder in my voice. So that you will be able to find yours and start on your course towards this gorgeous life.
To all of you mamas out there, you can do anything you dream of. I want you to find out this magical gift that you have. It is rhythm, it is beauty, it is honoring your body, it is love. It honors your children, your partner, your space. Your purpose will smile.
Since all of this intuition starts with honoring your body with beautiful food, a recipe.
Pineapple Buckcakes - A gluten and dairy free pancake
1 1/2 cups buckwheat flour
3/4 cup almond flour
1 1/2 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp sea salt
1/2 tsp cinnamon
2 cups (you may need a bit more depending on how thick the batter is) milk - we use almond mostly
2 TB earth balance or coconut oil, melted
Mix the dry and wet separately and then combine. If the batter is too thick, thin with some water or more milk. I usually make each pancake about a 1/4 cup size. Heat the pan, add in a tiny bit of coconut oil and then cook the first side until bubbles appear and start to pop. Flip over and cook for another 20 seconds or so.
1 cup frozen pineapple
1/2 cup water
1/4 cup agave or maple syrup
Bring the pineapple and water to a simmer, cooking until pineapple starts to soften, about 7 minutes. Add syrup or agave, let bubble up for about 2 minutes. Serve warm over buckcakes.